Self-Hatred

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abandonment, abstinence, Addiction, alcoholism, C-PTSD, complex ptsd, inspiration, Jesus, Mental health, mental illness, post traumatic stress disorder, PTSD, self-hate, self-hatred, spiritual

  (the first post in this series is here:  On Being a Social Outcast  )

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More on my… ~no-addictions~ … ~no-obsessions~ … adventure.

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At last… a very short post!

Feeding My Finches

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child abuse, christianity, Faith, Finch, God, Holy Spirit, inspiration, Israelite, Jesus, Miracle, spiritual

Until today, my faith has been really lacking regarding God’s super-natural happenings. I am definitely a doubting Thomas. Because I wasn’t a witness to all that Jesus did, my logical brain could not honestly believe that any of the events occurred.  Jesus performing all those miracles; dieing in order to save us; providing a Spirit to live in us. Blah, Blah, Blah…

My “NEW” God

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alcoholism, child abuse, Christian, God, inspiration, Jesus, Mental disorder, Mental health, mental illness, PTSD, relationship, religion, spiritual, testimony

My father was a powerful, powerful, undiagnosed, mentally unbalanced man. In fact, even to this day, I have never met a more powerful human being on this planet.

When I was a little kid he used to twirl me around by my arm like a helicopter and beat me while screaming stuff at me. I don’t remember what the stuff was he screamed at me because I was terrified I would be killed =accidentally= by getting my neck broken.

Our Father Weeps

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alcoholism, child abuse, Christian, christianity, cooties, crying, Father-God, Holy Spirit, inspiration, Jesus, rabies, relationship, spiritual, weep

Along with many, many others, this is for my blogging buddy:  Graeme
who writes posts that inspired me to write this.

A warning. This is very base. It was difficult to write; difficult to expose. But I felt led to write it and publish it because I think it’s necessary for others to understand how deeply Father-God loves us. His love for us goes deeper than we could ever, ever comprehend.

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