Hello… and thank you for stopping by.

First of all I want to say that I am a re-born Christian and God has been working with me for the last thirty-two of my sixty years. I am not where I used to be when I first met Jesus alone in my bedroom.

Mine has been a tough life. I am not sure why it had to be that way, (although I have a sneaking suspicion is has to do with paradigm shifts) but it has been tough since the beginning. There are many things I deal with; Complex PTSD and dissociative disorder from some extreme child abuse, schizo-affective disorder, alcoholism (recovered), suicide obsession (recovered), ulcerative colitis, constant severe anxiety (recovered), and a junk food obsession which is what I am working on with God right now.

But there is recovery too. In many ways I am no longer the lonely soul I used to be. I am a long way from being recovered from all I went through, and am going through, but I am definitely a far, far, far way from who I was.

I am maintaining my anonymity so that I will not have to edit out all the ugly parts of my life anymore. So that I am free to write with as much honesty as I can afford.

Give all feloreaw to Him, Our Great and Loving Father.
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A word God gave me in response to my pastor saying he wished he had a word to use in place of ‘fear’ …… as in …… “Fear God”

It is a combination of 4 words.

FE = Fear    LO= Love      RE = Reverence/Respect    AW = Awe

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Sounds like “Gloria”
“rhea”… a medical term that means… To gush out.

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6 thoughts on “Bio”

  1. We can so relate to each other, I’m so happy you commented on my blog so we can connect.


  2. Hello, there! Thank you for sharing the ups and downs of your journey! There are many mental illnesses I’m unfamiliar with (and am probably misinformed about), but I’m really keen to learn more. I’m a follower of Jesus, and have struggled with various degrees of depression. I would describe my last, most severe experience with it as being trapped in a vortex of mind games, lies, and self-loath. For the veil to be lifted, be it occasionally or for good, is truly a miracle. Nothing has brought me closer to my Creator, nor convinced me to give all of my life to Him, like my experience with depression. It’s a blessing in disguise. I look forward to learning more from your experiences and insights! Stay strong! (P.S. I blog about mental health, faith, and life in general.)


    • If you have bouts of depression that come and go you might be considered ‘unipolar’ which is the depressive side of ‘bipolar’ without the highs. Bummer.

      I agree about becoming closer to God because of having this illness. It is both a blessing and a curse for me. A blessing because I hear Him pretty vividly; a curse because I so badly need to hear Him vividly.

      I will go over and check out your blog. It sounds like something I would very much be interested in.


  3. I have been doing some soul searching and hoping one day to feel that closeness with God that others feel. Wishing you all the best in your journey of healing.


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