Song: Caribbean Blue

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1980's hits, 80's hits, carribean blue, enya, music, song, YouTube

Song: Orinoco Flow

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1980's hits, 80's hits, enya, music, orinoco flow, song, YouTube

Song: Girls on Film

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1980's hits, 80's music hits, duran duran, girls on film, music, song

Song: Hungry Like the Wolf

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1980's music hits, 80's hits, duran duran, hungry like the wolf, music, song, YouTube

Song: Shout

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1980's music hits, 80's music hits, shout, tears for fears, YouTube

Song: Everybody Wants to Rule the World

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1980's music hit, 80's music hit, everybodywants to rule the world, music, song, tears for fears, YouTube

Song: Simply Irresistible

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1980's music hit, 80's music hit, music, robert palmer, simply irresistible, song

This is a simply bizarre song & video from the 80’s. I can’t believe I still love it though. It’s so catchy.

A Dialogue with God -> 7-24-14

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Addiction, dialogue, Family, food, God, god dialogue, inspiritation, obsession, spirituality

A12:  Hi Pops

Pops:  Hi my little one-too. How are you?

A12:  I’m ok I guess. The last few days I’ve been bingeing on Salt Water Taffy though. I haven’t eaten any of my ‘alcoholic foods’ (sugar/flour junk) for over eleven months now, but I guess I have to add candy to the list of foods I can’t control. Damn it!!! When is all this crap going to be over??!! I keep running to earthly answers to my emotional pain. When is it going to end?! — but otherwise — I’m ok I guess.

Song: Deep Enough to Dream

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Arts, chris rice, deep enough to dream, music, song

by Chris Rice

Song: My Cathedral

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Arts, chris rice, music, my cathedral, song

Anger

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abstaining, Addiction, Anger, character defects, complex ptsd, Family, Father, food, God, overeating, post traumatic stress disorder, PTSD, recovery

I’ve been so angry lately. The little girl is angry. The one who took all the abuse for the rest of us. She’s angrier than all get out. “It’s not fair”, she says about taking the excess food away. “As if trying to live in this world isn’t bad enough for me, now you have to take my food away too?!! What’s next!!? Are you going to try to get rid of me altogether!!?”

Song: Losing My Religion

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losing my religion, music, R.E.M., REM, song

by R.E.M.

Song: The Sidewinder Sleeps Tonight

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music, R.E.M., REM, sidewinder sleeps, song

by R.E.M.

Song: Shine Happy People

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music, R.E.M., REM, shiny happy people, song

by R.E.M.

Her

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AA, abstinence, Addiction, Alcoholics Anonymous, character defects, complex ptsd, exercise, Family, junk food, Mental health, mental illness, PTSD, relationship, Theophostic, TPM

(the first post in this series is here:  On Being a Social Outcast  )

It feels like the noose is getting tighter. Liking myself is predicated on not junking out on any drug foods. Now this abstinence even includes abstaining from Costco frozen yogurt and doing 20 minutes exercise on the elliptical??!! I don’t know if there is a bottom to this ‘abstinence’ business.

I’m Still on the Damned Roller Coaster Ride!!

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abstinence, Addiction, C-PTSD, child abuse, christianity, denial, food obsession, grief, grieving process, junk food, Mental health, mental illness, PTSD, rage

(the first post in this series is here:  On Being a Social Outcast  )

It seems I’m on the emotional ‘roller coaster’ again with no idea where I’m going to next. Apparently I haven’t arrived at God’s destination for me as the ride isn’t over yet. I’m so tired of … one… more… time… having to deal with all these uncontrollably, wild feelings!! It’s not bad enough that I have to deal with food addiction; I have to deal with all this child-abuse-PTSD too!!??

Song: Love is Blue

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art, love is blue, music, paul mauriat, song, wilzon condori

Song: Classical Gas

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art, classical gas, mason williams, music, song

By Mason Williams